I've spent the last few years gobbling up time at a stunning rate and yet I still end up feeling like I never get enough done. I always joke that I need three more hours in a day-somewhere between lunch and dinner-and then I MIGHT be able to get everything done I need to do on that day. I started to wonder about this. All this busy-ness...Business...I get up to. It's what everyone does though, right? It's what we're supposed to do. Work, worry about work, talk about work, earn money, not earn enough money, contemplate ways to earn more money, establish a major to-do list, worry about not getting enough done on that list, hustle the kids through school, routines, sports, homework and squish all of this in between parenting and navigating your marriage, while trying to find time to relax and stay healthy and then maybe, as an after-thought, throw in some spiritual improvement if you can find the TIME.
So, this is all fine, really. It's totally one way of living but I can't help noticing how frantic everyone seems all the Time. Most of all me. I'm practically panting most days. I'm usually happy when I feel like I've accomplished something. I am not calm very often or content to just be. Even when I meditate, I have, like, an internal timer, that tells me, "Okay, that's enough! Time to get on with your day!".
What if I stop this? Just for these few months. Of course, I still have a million things to do in a day. Cruising is an active and sometimes intense way to go through life and one has to be aware of all kinds of factors to ensure one's safety and survival- much magnified when you are new to it and have young children! But what if I use this way of living, which provides me with LONG stretches of free Time to re-boot my notion of what to do with it. At sea, at anchor, waiting for the wind to shift... what if I reverse the order of the things I usually fill my Time with? Whenever i'm not actively engaged in survival, I'll spend Time pondering my spiritual center, Time relaxing and being healthy, Time relishing being in love and Time playing with and teaching my children. If I have some EXTRA Time, maybe I'll get something done on my to-do-list and If I'm actually at a loss for something to do... I'll ponder how I might make some money.
(I plan to need much, much, less of it, anyway)
I wonder where this will lead me in a few months...
Will I become a salt-encrusted, shaggy hippie with no sense of purpose?
Or will Time fade a little in importance, will I worry less and simply watch more sunsets with my children?
I guess we'll just have to see.
|Uno on watch|
|Nothin' to do but smile, smile. smile|
Now, If I can just stop thinking of how much I need to clean that area behind the stove!